Boundaries without lines.

 

This afternoon, on our drive home I had a very interesting conversation with my daughter. I have asked her for permission to share some aspects of that conversation and she is happy with that. This conversation had me going back to the thoughts on my garden. In recent months, I have not had much time to devote to my garden patch that is currently growing sweet potatoes. I am happy that something is growing there, even though it's not per my original plan. You see, I never deliberately set out to plant sweet potatoes. A friend of mine offered me a couple of already germinating roots and merely suggested that I should plant them seeing that I'm into "growing things". I didn't give it much thought. I simply got home and mindlessly dug them in. A few months later. My little patch was completely covered with the growing and thriving sweet potato plants. This now got my attention. I began to wonder how I'd know when they were ready for harvest and what that would entail. I was pleasantly surprised by the amount of sweet potato we dug up and even more so, I was blown away by the sheer size of the bulbs that came out of the ground. 

I've been contemplating the next harvest and I suspect it will be bigger than the first one. I am not a big fan of sweet potatoes. It has never really broken my heart to pay for a kilogram or 2. Spinach, tomatoes and rocket leaves however, that's another story. I cannot even describe the joy I get from simply making a turn at the back before I prepare a meal. How did we get here? My thoughtless lack of boundaries in the choice and intention of my gardening endeavors brought me here. In our conversation today, my daughter described how two things made her unhappy and enabled a toxic environment in one of her relationships. I stood and was in awe of how self aware she is, as she described her own contribution to the situation which led to a confrontation. She stated how her lack of communication of her own needs and of boundaries allowed the relationship to take the course it had taken. This caused both her and a friend pain and anxiety. She had allowed the relationship to take a specific trajectory at the expense of her emotional wellbeing, compromising her truth and authenticity with the friend. She "sowed" a different version of herself into the friendship and did not find fulfillment in that because, we can't be fulfilled in the character that is not truly ours. You see, she, like me, cultivated sweet potatoes at the expense of what she had envisioned for her life at school. 

What struck me about this nugget of wisdom is this. It may appear as if implementing boundaries is difficult and uncomfortable, however, dealing with the aftermath is much more painful. In order to reclaim my garden patch as ground for growing pride and joy in the form of spinach, green peppers and carrots; I have to put in a lot more work. The process of reclaiming the ground for my intended purpose, is not going to be fun nor easy. It's going to hurt the current and future sweet potatoes and it's going to take more effort than it did to establish the garden patch. 

My book, The Treasure Trove of Singleness deals with similar struggles of lack of boundaries in the quest to secure marriage at any cost. The Ebook is available on Google Books:The Treasure Trove of Singleness by Khomotso Maele - Books on Google Play and on Amazon on this link:The Treasure Trove of Singleness - Kindle edition by Maele, Khomotso, Muarakira, Caroline . Religion & Spirituality Kindle eBooks @ Amazon.com.